by Jane Straus -
Many of you know Ram Dass’s famous book, Be Here Now, the 1971 precursor to Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now.
From the titles of these books, you get the idea that there is something to be gained from focusing on the present rather than being run by our painful past or anxiously awaiting the unknowable future. Easier said than done, perhaps.
We have all seen (or have) the bumper stickers that say, “I’d rather be ____.” And who doesn’t say wistfully, “I wish,” ending the sentence with fantasies of Friday/the weekend/vacation/a new job/a new relationship/more wealth.
There’s nothing wrong with wishing and hoping and fantasizing. It’s a testament to our optimism and unique ability as humans to imagine the future. However, this same ability sometimes works against us.
One of my clients told me that he and his wife are going through a tough time. He’s afraid they may not make it. After a brief pause, he added, “Jane, I want to be hopeful. So I’m just going to put my anger and hurt aside.”
If it’s possible for this man to truly let go of his anger and hurt with the snap of his fingers, then more power to him. But if his hope depends on ignoring his painful feelings, that hope is bound to be short lived.
Anger and disappointment, ignored and pushed aside, tend to recirculate.
As much as we try, denying “what is” doesn’t make “what isn’t” more attainable. Like this husband in pain, I often wish I were “there,” or at least anywhere-but-here, now.
We can only change that which we acknowledge exists.
If we can practice sitting with our feelings as they are—all of them, not just the comfortable or happy ones—if we can stay present with the present, we notice that our feelings evolve.
Anger dissolves into hurt, sometimes tinged with regret. Hurt and regret give way to sadness and mourning.
If we don’t run from this grief, it eventually leads to a unique combination of acceptance, forgiveness, understanding, and compassion.
Grace releases us from the grip of suffering. We begin to notice that we feel free where we formerly felt constrained and tight.
This process may happen slowly or quickly but with patience, compassion for our struggle and perseverance, it will happen. Isn’t this worth being here now for?